I've got some explanin' to do...
OK, I have to admit, that I haven't told you the whole story about why Michael and I aren't speaking anymore. After I got
Beth's comment today on my
post from last night, I decided that I was being unfair by complaining about my aggrivation with Michael, but not telling you the whole story of why we are no longer talking.
You see- when this all happened I didn't blog about it because it hurt, but I think I am ready to talk! Whew, this feels better already.
Remember back a couple of weeks ago in the post
'Excitement & Tremendous Confusion'? Well, in that post I mention that Michael had called me at work that day for absolutely no reason, and during the course of our conversation he mentioned coming up the following Thursday? Well that following Thurday was March 2nd. That's where it all really begins.
I talked to him that day (March 2nd) and he said he had some things he
had to do for a friend of his. I guess this friend did something for him and he had to repay him by laying some flooring in his house or something. Anyway, he said he wanted to come up the following Thursday for sure, March 9th.
Now, before you wonder why he only spends the night on Thursday nights, I will tell you. He works about 15 minutes from where I work which is an hour from his house and an hour and fifteen minutes from my house. We both have Fridays off (he has every Friday off, I have every other Friday off). It works out that we can stay up, enjoy eachothers company and get to spend some quality time together since I am so busy every other day of the week with work and school. He doesn't stay on Saturday nights because that's my night with my friends, its not that I want to exclude him- it's just that it's always been this way and I guess neither one of us cared enough to change it. I don't know.
Anyway, March 9th rolled around. I talked to him around lunch time and he said that he might have to work late that night and he didn't know what he was going to do. He assured me that when he knew for sure, he would call me. Thats the last time I talked to him. Today makes 3 weeks. I haven't seen him anywhere in 4 weeks, and he hasn't stayed here in 10 weeks. I know, I should be a math major with all these statistics! Ha ha.
Anyway, I did leave him a message late Thursday night (March 9th), but thats the only time I called him and the message was tasteful.
I said:
'Hey, it's me. It's 9:30 and I haven't heard from you. I'm guessing that means you aren't planning on seeing me tonight. You didn't have to lie to me. I don't lie to you and I don't deserve to be lied to.' That's it. He hasn't tried to contact me at all. It worries me because thats very unlike him, and it scares me because of the people he is hanging out with. They aren't exactly good people. As far as I know they are into drugs. With my major being Communications with a concentration in Public Speaking and a specific emphasis on Substance Abuse, I am no fan of people like that. It worries me that something will happen to him and I won't get to say anything before its to late. I don't ever want to live with regrets. I hope that makes sense!??!??
I know that there is no 'other girl'. I can't explain it, but I have been with him for so long and I know when something is wrong. This is the 'I'm doing something that Ashley wouldn't like' kind of running he's doing, and it's not because he's seeing someone else. I seriously think he's trying to hide the fact that he is doing drugs or something of that nature.
I hate to sound like his mother or some constant worry wort, but since we started this rocky road- he has went totally south.
In the back of my mind, I think I sould call him and tell him that I am here for him if he ever needs to talk, I need to tell him that no matter what happens I will always love him, and that I will always stand behind him as long as he needs me. I really do think that he needs someone to listen to him and to help him. I know that people with problems like this can't be helped unless they want help, but I also believe that I am the only person he would confide in if he wanted help and it scares me that he might just be to proud to ask for it.
I am completely serious about all this. I don't want to sound like I am jumping to conclusions.
Help? Any advice? Fantastagirl- you are always good for some advice, and Beth- you seem to say stuff that makes me feel better.
I have only started blogging since all this started, and it has helped to have 'friends' that read my page and comment on a daily basis.
OK, well, I am going to bed. I should tell you that my parents came and took me to dinner last night. My dad changed his mind last minute and decided that he wanted to go out. I was just to lazy to go back and edit the post. I no sooner clicked on Publis post and my mom called and said they were coming over.
Have a good night-
Ashley
Aggrivation!!!
Before I begin this post, I have to tell you that this is my 2nd post today. Be sure to read all about
my thoughts and American Idol below!
Ok, I had to type a post on this topic before I blew my lid.
I am so aggrivated. I had the hardest time going to sleep last night because this was thinking non-stop. I am more aggrivated at my self then anything else. I have several aggrivatoins....
First, my dad. He was away with my mom all weekend and I haven't got to see him since last Wednesday I think. Thats pretty long for me when I am used to seeing him quite a bit. Anyway, since we were both on seperate trips over the weekend I didn't get to see him. They came home yesterday, and I rode by there with Pam to pick up a book for school. I was in the driveway getting the book out of the car and I was in a big hurry so I didn't run in. He called me later and wanted to know why I didn't come in. Here's my question to you- why didn't he come out? It wasn't raining or anything, he could have walked out on the porch to say hello. Well, tonight I tell my mom I am going home after work because I am tired. She says 'Your father would like to see you, he hasn't seen you since last week.' Now, my mom and I are
really close and I can tell her anything- so I do. Why can't he come to my house. I have lived here 9 months and I can count on one hand how many times he has come here. And he
never comes to just visit. It's always either because I have had them for dinner, it's a holiday, or he has to pick up or drop something off. UGH! My mom decided that they should come take me to dinner tonight so he can see me and I don't have to drive there. More like a comprimise. Well, I talked to her about 20 minutes ago and he said he wan't sure. She would call me back when she knew something for sure. So here you go people, I am sitting here typing this post waiting for that very phone call....and waiting.
Second, Michael. I am aggrivated with myself about this one. It's been 10 weeks since we've been 'intimate' for lack of a better term! (Makes me sound so old & no I don't mark down when I have sex on a calendar I just remember! Don't make fun of me!!), and 3 weeks since we have spoken. You would think by now that he wouldn't be in my mind, but he is....seems like always! Last night when I was laying in bed trying to fall asleep I couldn't get him out of my head, I tossed and turned for an hour. Then it aggrivates me that on Sunday when I was at his house, I am sure he was there- he didn't come out to say hello or anything. It's not like we had a knock down drag out fight, we just quit speaking. Anyway, I have this constant urge to call him, but then I think- what would I say when he answered the phone? What if I say something I regret later? What if he says he's sorry? What if he doesn't answer? What if, what if, what if!?!?!?!? I hate this feeling, and I hate wondering all the time. I wish this would all go away. I have the perfect situation to let it go in. I don't talk to Duncan anymore and thats good because they were friends and I rarely see his brother. I also hate the fact that I wonder this about a person I used to be able to call and/or run to during my weakest moments. I hate it that we aren't comfortable with each other anymore, who am I kidding- I hate it that we're not us anymore.
OK, enough of my rant. I am going to cook dinner now, my mom just called and they are staying in tonight. Looks like I am cooking for one yet another night.....ugh!
Have a good one
~A
Wednesday Already!
WOW! This week is really flying by! I can't believe it's Wednesday already!
Monday and Tuesday were great days for me.
On Monday I didn't have to come into work until Noon which was really nice. I had stayed at my parents house on Sunday night since they were out of town, so I got up around 9 and did some dishes and played with the dogs before I had to leave for work. I got out of work at 4 and came home to do laundry and get my house in order since I wasn't home all weekend. I ended up getting all my laundry done. I went to dinner with Scott, Pam, Corey, Beth and Steve at Sagebrush steakhouse. It was yummy! After dinner me and Scott went back to Pam and Corey's and watched 'Deal or No Deal' and let the pups play. They are both getting so big. (I am going to have to take some new pictures)
Tuesday turned out even better then Monday. I came into work around 9 and left at 2:30. (I could do this everyday, but I car pool and driving my self is out of the question because gas is so expensive. I am 40hrs/week, but I get paid no matter what hours I work and I only have to work until the job is done). Anyway, I went home after work and read blogs and hung out for a bit, then headed to Pam and Corey's around 4. I rode with her to take the little boy she babysits home and then we rode by my parents house to pick up a book I had left in my Mom's car for my online class. On the way home, we saw one of our old friends Kelly- he is an extremely geougous guy we used to
always hang out with. We talked to him for a few and headed home. As soon as I got back to Pam's I headed to Wal-Mart to get some groceries, then it was home to watch American Idol. I was in bed by 9 last night! Yeah!
This weekend we are throwing a 'suprise party' for Beth. She will be 20 tomorrow. I ordered her cake last night from Wal-Mart and I can't wait to bite into it. It's a marble cake with vanilla buttercream frosting. It had Mickey Mouse on it and it says 'Happy Birthday B-Liz!'. I wanted to use her nickname to make it a little more personal. I've invited Sean, Duncan, Pam, Corey, Scott, My Parents, Steve (of course!), Bex, Aaron, and 2 more of Beth's friends. I haven't heard back from he other 2 friends, and I had to leave a message for Sean and Duncan. I really don't care who comes, we aren't going to have an all out party- we're just gonna play cards, drink a little and eat cake. She will be happy either way! I have to set a reminder on my cell phone to call her tomorrow morning and sing her Happy Birthday at the
top of my lungs! She'll love it!
Wanna know what I thought of Idol last night? It sucked!!!
Lisa- I thought she sang the Kelly Clarkson song good, but Paula was right- since it was such a hit she really should have made it her own.
Kellie- Of course I'm a fan since she is from the town I live in, but I wasn't crazy about her song choice. She sang the Star Spangled Banner at my high school graduation and it sounded much better. Sara Evans has a totally different voice then Kellie so it really didn't work.
Ace- I have acquired this new love for Ace. I
loved the song and everything about the performance. He has really grown on me these last 2 weeks.
Katherine- I wasn't crazy about her performance, but she does have an awesome voice.
Taylor- I don't like the song 'Trouble', but I
love Taylor! He has such a great personality and awesome energy when he's on stage!
Mandisa- I don't like her at all. It's just that she never vears from the soulful music she sings. She never takes a chance and last night was no exception.
Chris- If I had to pick an American Idol I would pick Chris- enough said.
Bucky- I loved his song choice and they way he performed it. The song seemed to really fit his personality.
Paris- Contrary to the judges Randy and Paula, I have to go with Simon and say it SUCKED!
Elliot- I love Gavin DeGraw and I really don't think Elliot sang that song very well, but he did give it a new spin. Go Elliot!
Ok, off my soapbox now!
Have a great Wednesday! I might play Way Back Wednesday later tonight!
Ashley
Fun Weekend!
I had a blast this weekend. It was really nice to get away. I'm not going to chronicle the whole weekend for you, but I will tell you a shortened version!
FridayBex and I left work at 5 and LB and Beth were at her house by 5:30 and we were on the road by 6. We
got to the beach around 10:3o (we made a few stops). One was in Cheraw, SC where LB bought this rag looking thing and began waving at random strangers.
We made loud obnoxious noises at every stop light, laughed until drink came out our nose, and randomly came up with corny sayings! It was a blast. We checked into the hotel at 10:30 and headed to Wal*Mart for some goodies. We never actually got back to the hotel and into bed until after midnight. We were all beat from a busy day and long night!
SaturdayWe got up early and went shopping at the Tanger Outlets. We shopped all day! We went to Cracker Barrel for lunch and kept on shopping. We finally headed back to the hotel around 3:30 and headed to t
he beach to take some more pictures. There was even a hot guy on the beach throwing a football around with another guy. It wasn't to cold, but I couldn't go out without my jacket. After we took some pictures, we decided to go eat some dinner. We headed to Dick's Last Resort. It's a really neat restaurant where they are mean to you and they give you hats to wear that look like giant oversized condoms. My hat said "If Dicks Had Wings My Mouth Would Be An Airport". LOL. Beth's said "I Have A Hairy Kitty" and LB's said "Instant Ho Just Add Beer", lastly, Bex's hat said "The Health Department Closed My Legs". I thought they were all cute! I even bought a shirt that said "Dick says Size Does Matter, they don't call it the big bang theory for nothing". LOL. I had to... After dinner we went to the hotel to drink some Ameretto and get ready. We got all dressed for fun and headed to the strip, the original plan was to go to a gift shop and head to the club. Well, we ended up cruising the strip for 2 hours and getting to the club at Midnight. We went to Kryptonite around midnight and had a BLAST! I've never been to a club before, but that was fun! We got back to the hotel around 2:30 am and went straight to bed!
SundayWe checked out at 9 and headed home. We got stuck in some traffic somewhere near Bennetsville, SC and we started acting really 'silly'.
Yes, thats me in the picture to the right going down a slide at a gas station wearing oversized pink sunglasses! It was funny for sure- there were people sitting in traffic taking pictures of me- I felt like a dork! Beth and I got to Beka's and had to drive an hour home so we didn't get home until 3 O'Clock. My parents are out of town until Wednesday night, so that leaves Scott home alone. His girlfriend was here all weekend but had to leave Sunday afternoon to go back to school. I fixed him supper and Beth and Steve ate with us. It was fun!
I am at work today wishing I was sitll at the beach!
Hope everyone had a good weekend, I will read blogs later when I'm not busy!
Gotta get back to work!
Ashley
New Look!
Y'all like my new look?
Like
Taylor, I decided it was time for a Spring look! I like it, in fact I might keep it for a while!
I really don't have anything exciting today, other then:
I'm Goin' To The Beach!!!!Don't be jealous y'all, the weather isn't going to be that good. We're leaving right after work and we should be there around 9 or 9:30. We're gonna check into the room and go to Wal-Mart to purchase some necessities, and yes alcohol is a necessity! We are planning on doing some shopping tomorrow and maybe hitting a club Saturday night. We have to leave by 9 am Sunday morning so I will be home by Noon and still have time to prepare for the week!
I am counting the minutes till 5!
Have a great weekend,
Ashley
HNT My Way & Scatter Brained Day
Hey Y'all-
WOW- today has been quite a day!
First, I didn't get up in time to eat my breakfast so I could take my antibiotic for my teeth. Well, that just messed up my entire morning routine. Then, I met my mom at the church we usually meet at. On the way to our car-pool buddy Julie's house we stopped at McDonald's for breakfast and it hit me....on Thursdays I am supposed to drive to Julies house because I have school a mile from her house on Thursday nights. UGG! So we decide we will figure it out this evening. So, we come on to work. I had leadership training all morning from 8:30-12. It was increadibly boring. I was having the hardest time staying awake. Thankfully the last speaker finished 30 minutes early and we got out at 11:30. I finally got back to my desk at 1. Y'ay! Now, I just have to figure out what I am going to do about my car tonight!?!? I guess my mom will have to drop me off at school to take my test and come back and get me when it's time to go. I have to look at my pacing guide for the class, she might not make us stay once the test is over she may let us go....that would be nice.
I didn't pack for the beach last night, which leaves me with tonight and thats it! Damn American Idol was on and I couldn't walk away from the tv!! Ha ha. I am a tv junkie sometimes.
Enough of my rant, here's
HNT My Way...
This is Bo with my brother (his daddy)! He is getting sooo big. He now has control of his ears which is so adorable. He also has quite the mouth on him! He's doing great though and has caught on to potty training quite well!
I'm sure I will blog tomorrow!
~Ashley
Tomorrow will be what????
FYI, I finally got my pictures posted,
My Favorite Things! Blogger has been being a real pain lately.
Anyway, guess what tomorrow will be??? 9 WEEKS! 9 whole weeks since I have been with or seen Michael. Seems really liberating for some reason. It hurts to know that in 9 weeks he has barely made an effort to contact me unless he had a question that only I knew the anwer to. It's sad really.....
On to happier things.....
I'm packing for the beach tonight!!!Thats right, I'm packing tonight. Tonight is the only time I will have to get ready before it's time to go! I have school on Thursday night and it looks like I am going to have to be here all day Friday. Wooo hooo! Just packing has me excited! A weekend away with the girls, can it get any better then this???
Stayin' Strong!
Ashley
Favorite Things! FINALLY!!!
OK, for some reason blogger wouldn't let me add these pictures to the Sunday post, so I am creating a new post for my favorites, here they are!
My Driveway & My CarI obviously took this picture from the back of my apartment. I am standing on the balcony. I love my driveway because it is completely concrete. I also absolutely love my car, and in this far away picture it's actually very clean from AutoBell!
My Kitchen Cabinets & The Decorations above my cabinets....
I love my kitchen because it's the brightest, 'happiest' room in the house. See my little Oriental Paper lamps hanging above my cabinet? You should see them at night. This isn't the best picture, but there is also greenery arond the top with bright colored dasies, and various differnt types of alcohol bottles, to the far right is a hot pink beer funnel resting on an ice bucket covered in dasies. I LOVE my kitchen!
The Wall Behind My Couch...
I love this shelf and I didn't have anyting to put on it. I bought different colored candles and it fit perfectly!
My Entertainment Center....
The walls behind it are drab and need something, but I love my entertainment center! I have a lot of pictures & candles. See my plant in the pot? It's still alive!!!
My Hallway....
I love my hallway for 2 reasons, 1) I made the picture frames. These are pictures of Michael's junior and senior prom. I wore a pink dress for Junior, and a blue dress for Senior. The flowers at the top of the frame match the dress! (I'm so creative.) 2) The flowers on the wall were stenciled on by me, and they match the flowers at the top of the frames! My brother says the hallway in my house screams 'Barbie Palace', but I think it just defines that I am a chick that lives by myslef so gender neutral is not in the equation!
Well, I better get back to work!
Have a good Day!
Ashley
Sick Day
Well, today has been a total bust. I am feeling so out of it and I
hate it!! I woke up this morning feeling like total crap so I called into work. My wisdom teeth are absolutely killing me. I am counting down the days until surgery now.....2 weeks! Wooo hooo!
I thought since I was going to be off today, I would attempt to get something done around the house since I am going to be at the beach all weekend. I got up around 10 and took a shower. I didn't do a darn thing though. The place Duncan works at was to busy to rotate my tires on Saturday so I took it back this morning. Before I left I took all the trash out and threw a load in the washer. I picked Pam up so she could ride along and we headed out. It only took him 10 minutes and we were on the road again. We got to go from a local restaurant and went to my parents house to eat with my Dad and My Brother for lunch. I got home around 1:30 and I have done absolutely nothing. When I came in the door I ran downstairs to get the laundry moved around and I threw the dry stuff on the bed, but thats where it lays. The clean dishes need to be put up, but I don't feel like it. The floors in my bedroom could use a good dusting, but I don't want to. I should go to Wal-Mart and get some organizing things so I can organize my closets and get some more room for other things in there. I might break down and go shoe shopping.....I really want a new pair of Tennis Shoes for this weekend.
I tried to upload my pictures to Sunday's post, but Blogger is giving me grief. I have e-mailed the pictures to myself at work and I will try again tomorrow. It sucks!
I am getting
really excited about the beach this weekend. We are leaving on Friday after work so there won't be any blogging from me this weekend. Since we only live 3 hours from Myrtle Beach, we will be back by Noon on Sunday. We are planning on having a whole load of fun and I will definately take all the pictures I can!
~Later~Ashley
Pictures coming....
It has been crazy at work today! I am going to put the pictures up from Sunday's post below tonight providing Blogger is working. I will also post something new and interesting. Ha ha!
~A
Sunday & My Favorites!
Hey Y'all -
I hope everyone is having a great weekend! So far mine has been great!
Yesterday Rebeka and I went and visited Chris, then we went to AutoBell and had our cars washed. It makes me so mad, because I meant to take a camera with me and take pictures- but naturally I walked out and forgot it! After AutoBell we met Beth at the mall and shopped our hearts out! There were some good sales though. I got 2 pairs of Capri pants at Gap for $26, then we went to American Eagle where I got 4 pair of underwear- the have the most comfortable underwear ever- but they're not cheep $20 for 4 pair! Then we went to ACMoore my favorite craft store ever! I bought this thing called the Knifty Knitter- its like a loom for knitting- its really easy to use if you have never knitted before. I really like it and it gives me something to do in my spare time. I am starting out making a scarf. We had lunch at Chili's and scooted outta the mall. Rebeka went home and Beth and I kept on shopping. We went to Goody's (its a local store around here, really nice clothes)- they carry Duck Head clothes and they wear so good. I bought 2 3/4 sleeve button down shirts for work and a white under shirt to match them, total= $26. I did good yesterday! Finally we made it to Wal-Mart and picked up some necesseties, then came home. Beth went home and got Steve and they came over. He surfed the web and watched tv while be both used our newly purchased Knifty Knitters. We ordered pizza and just hung out, it was fun!
I am going to do a little bit more shopping today. My spring wardrobe is almost complete, but I have to get some clothes I can wear to work- the dress code is office casual Mon-Thurs and I really only have 2 pairs of Capri pants I can wear there in the summer so I need to find like 2 more and I will be good! I also need to get some new shoes for the summer, flip flops or sandals. For work I really need something dressy, but I would rather just wear flip flops- I will have to see what I can find! I can't wait until the store opens because I have so much I want to accomplish today and I don't want to spend the whole day shopping again! I am going to my parents later to visit, and watch the race- and I have to show my Mom the Knifty Knitter- that thing is so cool!
I decided that on Sunday's I was going to show my blogger friends some of my favorite things, and I need to make up for the fact that I missed 'HNT My Way'. Here it goes....
**OK, Blogger is not working with the picture upload thing right now, I will try again this afternoon.**Sorry :-(
Summer.....
Hey Y'all,
So, I got up this morning all ready for the day and as soon as I stood up I had this terrible pounding headache. I think it might be because my wisdom teeth are killing me, but I'm not sure. I took some headache medacine the doctor gave me last time I went. I could have taken Aleve or Advil, but that stuff doesn't work on these headaches. Anyway, I want to be 'productive' today and actually get something done. I am working 5 days a week for the next 2 weeks, so I won't have any
lazy Fridays to clean my house so I can be lazy all day Saturday! Although, since I am going to the beach next weekend, I might only work 1/2 a day Friday- depends on how busy we are.
Anyway, I decided I was going to pick out the clothes I was going to wear today. I open my closet door and to my horror
nothing jumps out and yells 'PUT ME ON' or 'I DON'T MAKE YOUR ASS LOOK HUGE'. I didn't do
any laundry all week, so I have some major catching up to do today. I immediately closed my closet door and ran downstairs to start some laundry so I have something nice to wear today. I have to take my car to get the tires rotated- I called the dealership because my first 3 services are free....
kinda. My oil changes are free, but everything else is gonna cost me. The guy tells me that at 5,000 miles the tires should be rotated. I ask 'Is that free with the oil change?' He says 'No M'am- it's 16.99'. To move 4 tires around?????? CRAZY! The place Duncan works at does it for FREE. I am going to stop there on my way to meet Rebeka, I have to rush though- I have to meet her at 12:30! I am usualy on time for everything, but on the weekends- I am always late! We are going to visit Chris, a lady we work with that had 2 back surgerys and has been out since Janurary. After we visit Chris, we are going to meet Beth at a local mall and shop for some beach clothes for next weekend! WOOO HOO! I also need to look for a new purse, the one I have now isn't bad- but the top doesn't close and everytime I go around a corner it goes all over my car.
Speaking of my car- it's nasty! I need to wash it today or get it washed. AutoBell here I come! I have to do something with it! It's black- mistake number one....then, the pollen from the trees in my driveway was all over it and it sprinkled- not enought to wash the pollen off- but enough to make it look hideous! It almost look grey with all the dirt on it!
I don't have any plans for tonight. Last night was interesting. I was on my way home from Wal-Mart with Beth and Steve. We were in my car. I am turing onto my street and I realize the vehicle in front of me resembles one of Sean's ex-girlfriends. I decide that I am going to call her and see if it really is her. (She doesn't know its me behind her because she doesn't know my new car) I call her from a private number. Yep its her. I totally caught her cruising by my house!!! There was no other reason to ride down my street but that!!! LOL. I think she was embarassed! I invited her up and we all sat around and talked. It was nice to get to see her without Sean around. Speaking of Sean- he called me last night to invited me to Hooters with Duncan and his girlfriend. It sounded like it was just going to be the 4 of us- glad I passed! And he called me at 7:30, who eats dinner at 9 on at Friday night? UGH men! Anyway- apparently Sean told Duncan to make the calls and invite everyone and he only called my brother. Not me, my brother. Scott passed up the opportunity because like me he would rather stay home and eat the free things in the fridge!
I don't know whats going on tonight. Probably a whole lot of the same things we usually do. Maybe a little drinking- but probably not me....I have homework to do on Sunday that I need to be completely sober and un-hungover for!
Hope Y'all Have a Great Weekend!
Ashley
Can't Pinch Me- I'm wearin' Green!
Hey Y'all-
I feel slack, I didn't post a darn thing yesterday! I didn't even get to do 'HNT My Way'! Sorry!
Like my title? I thought it was cute. For the 1st time in years I remembered to wear Green on St. Patricks Day! I
never wear green on St. Patricks Day, and it's not because I don't enjoy the holiday, it's because I always forget!
I don't have to much fun planned for the weekend. I am looking forward to relaxing. Me and Rebeka are going to visit a lady we work with that has been out of work for surgery tomorrow. I might do some shopping while I am out, but nothing to big because next weekend we are going to the beach, and they aren't any paydays between now and then! :-(
Hope y'all have a good weekend!
Ashley
10 Things I Would Love About You!
I've been thinking a lot about getting back into the 'Dating World'. I'm not sure if I am ready or not, I think I need to give it more time. In the meantime, I have decided to think of 10 things that I
really want this time around......Enjoy!
1. Personality - This is an absolute must. Guys without personalities are boring. I like to joke around and I am willing to say that I have a great sense of humor. I want someone who will laugh and act crazy and fun with me!
2. Honesty - No doubt about it, I didn't have much of this in my last realtionship. I will never ever ever date a man who is not honest. If you say you're going to call, call damn it! If you say you're on your way, you better show up!!! I can't stand liars!
3. Motivation - I am very motivated, and active. I want someone who wants to make something of their life and is willing to work towards their goals. I don't want any lazy ass who would rather watch sports and work a $10 an hour job then go to college, and if you aren't going to go to college, then don't change jobs every 2 weeks...stick with something!!!!
4. Goals -Goals are a big thing to me! They go right along with motivation. You have to have goals to get motivation to do something. If your only goal is drinking a whole 6 pack on Saturday with the boys, forget my name!
5. Not Clingy - I want a guy who wants to spend time with me, but gives me my space too. I don't want you to beat me home from work or call me every 10 minutes to check on me. I like my 'girl time' and I want you to understand that! =)
6. Accepting of my Imperfections -I have to admit, I'm not perfect - I definately need a guy who accepts my imperfections. I have let my weight get the best of me in the last year, that's one of my biggest imperfections. I need to loose some weight. I like to be loud when I'm having fun and I am early for everything...so what?!? There is nothing I hate more then someone who criticizes me, if you love me....you're gonna have to love
all of me....even my imperfections!
7. Has Friends Who Accept Me - I
hate it when a guy lets his friends control his life. I absolutely despise it! If they don't like me and you do, tell them to f**k off! Thank you...I feel better now!
8. Has His Independence - It is an absolute must to have your independence, unless for some reason you are living at home to support your family financially. I hate it when guys depend on their parents for everything. Guys- you're old enough to do your own laundry now!!!
9. Accepting of My Friends - I want a guy that like my friends. I don't want him to hate my friends, and if he has an issue with them I want him to tell me....I don't expect him to like them because I told him to!
10. Makes Time to be With Me - If you don't want to spend time with me or can't ever seem to make time to spend with me, then obviously I am not an important part of your life. It is so important to me that a guy is willing to make time to be with me no matter how hectic his schedule gets.
Alright, I feel better now! Let me know what you think? I would love to hear your opinions. Do you think I should add any?
~A
Tuesdays = American Idol!
Hey Y'all,
Tuesday thru Thrusday is the best part of the week for me! I am loving this season of American Idol! I have to say I am a Kellie Pickler fan, as well as a Chris Daughtry fan!
He's a cutie pie! I love his style to, when he sings he really gets you into it!
Anyway, the weather here is AWESOME again today! I actually turned my air conditioning on last night! I'm not feeling to good today, hope I don't come down with something.....
Later!
~A
Weekend Rundown
For starters- I had a great weekend with my Mom.
FridayShe got home from work around 3:30 and we went to see
Failure To Launch at 4. It was awesome! After the movie we ran by my Aunt and Uncles for a visit, then through McDonald's Drive-Thru for a burger. We went back to my parents house and played this new gamy my mom bought called
Sequence, its neat. Then at 10:00 we met Pam and Corey and went to Ihop for some French Toast! YUM! I stayed with my Mom on Friday night.
SaturdayWe got up kinda early and came to my place to paint the trim in my kitchen. I painted everything and Mom wired the new light switches, she is sooo handy! =) When we were finished we went back to her house to lounge around and play with the Pups. We went to dinner and to the mall last night. She dropped me off at my apartment around 9:30 and I took a shower. Duncan and Sean called while I was in the shower, they were gonna stop by. Duncan brought his new girlfriend Laura. She's trash. She is friends with this girl who used to live by my parents, this chick has a horrible reputation and she is proud of her sleazy ways, and Duncan dates her best friend.....so she won't be coming back here, don't want no disease clorox won't wash off running around my house. They left around 11:30 and Sean and I watched TV until 1 this morning when he left.
SundayDid my usual Bojangles thing with Pam and Corey minus Duncan. We got it togo today and went to their house to eat. I hung around there for a while with them, and Mom called and said she was ready. We met here and all rode together to this
awesome ice cream place called
Marble Slab Creamery, we had the greatest ice cream! Yum! Then we walked around Lowes for a while. After we got back into town her and I went grocery shopping and back to her house. I helped her clean real good and at 6 we went to Beth and Steves for tacos. She just dropped me off a little bit ago.
I think I am going to get into bed early tonight. I am feeling a little beat! I might even dress up for work tomorrow! (I am supposed to dress up every day, but the feeling never really hits me!!)
Hope your weekend was awesome!
~A
Early Day
UGH. It's 8 am and I am typing this post. I slept terrible last night. I hate it when I am awake and tossing and turning all night. I feel like I didn't get any sleep and every joint in my body is sore!!!!
I am going to take advantage of getting up early though, I am going to take a shower and eat some breakfast. It's supposed to be pretty outside today, so I am going to paint my toe nails and put on some flip flops and enjoy this weather. My mom has to work until noon today, but I have her car and I am going to take it to get the oil changed, then I am going to wash it real good. We are supposed to go see 'Failure to Launch' this afternoon. I hope its good! I love Matthew McConaguhey. (Spelling is probably completely wrong!!)
Anyway, I am so hopeing that this weekend turns out better then this week. I am so tried of drama and being aggrivated. I want to wake up for once and feel like I have nothing to worry about, will that day ever come??
Beautiful Outside & HNT My Way!
Hey,
UGH! I am bummed to be back at work today, but at least I am off tomorrow!
This is gonna be an awesome weekend with these great temperatures!!
HNT My Way:
This is the boys playing last Friday night. Bailey is a Weimaraner. He is a cutie!
I don't know what I am going to do tonight. My Dad and Brother are going away for the weekend, and leaving tonight so I am gonna have a 'girls weekend' with my Mommy! I am excited!
Have a good afternoon, hope it's as beautiful as mine!
~A
WoW! What a GREAT week!
So far, this has been a wonderful week! I wish is could work from home more often!
I slept late yesterday and met my Dad and Brother for lunch. Jessica dropped Cadie off with me around 12:30 and we came back to Pam's house. I hung out there all afternoon until Cadie's aunt came to pick her up around 4. We went to the event for Kellie Pickler, but it was too cold and too crowded. They gave everyone a rose that had a little tag on it that said "Pick Pickler". It's really neat to see the town reacting this way to her being in the top 16. I wonder what will happen when she makes it farther!?!?
I just got up about 10 minutes ago. I didn't sleep to good last night. I think I have to much on my mind, it drives me crazy! Pam just called and we are going to go to breakfast together in a few minutes. I guess that means I better get in the shower.
I really plan on cleaning today. I am going to strip the sheets off the bed and wash them, hang the rugs out to 'air out', and mop these dusty floors. I love hardwood, but they get so dirty in no time!
Have a Happy Hump Day!
~A
Another day....
Ugh, I am so glad Monday is about over with. I despise Mondays! They seem to last forever at work, and tonight there wasn't even any good TV on!
Sunday night was fun. I ended up not watching the race at all! Beth and I hung out all day, cleanded, shopped and did laundry. Pam and Corey came over around 5 and we had a homemade meal of pork chops, mashed potatoes, green beans, macaroni and cheese, corn bread, and sweet rolls. I also made brownies for dessert! It was Yummy!
I had to work today. (Who am I kidding, I work 8-5 everyday) But, who has the greatest job
ever?? I DO!! I am working from home on Tuesday and Wednesday and taking Friday as a vacatoin day!!! The only days I actually have to drive the hour to work was today and now this coming Thursday!!! I am super excited! Since my job is at UNC Charlotte- they are closed this week for spring break, so no students = no work! Yee Haw!
Some exciting plans for tomorrow night, I live in Albemarle, NC home of American Idol Kellie Pickler. Tomorrow night there are shutting down the block behind my apartment near a local bar and grill. They are bringing in giant large screen tv's for outside viewing. According to the paper shows like Access Hollywood, Entertainment Tonight, and other stations will be there filming as we celebrate her making it into the top 16. It's really been exciting around here with all the 'Pickler Pride'. I will take my camera and take lots of pictures. Hopefuly it doesn't rain!
I started learning to crochet tonight. Beth and I went to Wal-Mart and bought a book and some needles and we crocheted away tonight! It was fun, and even relaxing! We went to a Japaneese restaurant and ate Habachi Chicken- yum! That stuff is great!
I don't have much to do tomorrow during the day. I am keeping Cadence again in the afternoon, but other then that I am just going to hang around the house and proably divulge into some intense spring cleaning between The View and Dr. Phil!
~A
Weekend Recap
Hey Y'all- What a strange weekend this has been, I can't say its been bad- just strange.
FridayBeth, Scott, Bo, Bailey, Pam, Corey and I played spoons and ordered pizza. FUN!
SaturdayI couldn't sleep in for some reason. My mind was racing about something, but I have no idea what. I got up around 9:30 and ate some breakfast and started my chores around the house. I didn't feel like hanging out here all day. I called Beth to see what she was doing, but it sounded like it was going to be forever before she was ready to do anything, as usual. I did my dishes and threw a load in the washer and I was off to visit with my Mom who was home by herself because my Dad and brother were working some overtime hours yesterday. We had fun. We went to lunch together, vaccumed out my car, went to the laundry mat and washed some blankets that wouldn't fit in her washer, then came back to her house and played with the puppies. I was going to go out with Pam and Corey, Scott and Beth to dinner, but I decided against it. Corey said to call around and see if we could get some other people to go. Well I called 3 of my so-called friends and they all said they would call back in 30 minutes. 2 of them said they would call back in 30 minutes, but might just come over to hang out at my house later. Well, after and hour nobody called back so I said 'FUCK IT' and called Pam, Corey, and Beth and told them that Scott and I were going out with our parents. We had a great time with mom and dad. We went shopping and then out to dinner. I came home and played this game called Sequence with my mom, its fun! I finally made it back to the apartment at 11:30 and crashed.
I am tired of people saying one thing an doing another. I
never do that. If I don't want to or can't do something- I just say it!!!
I don't have
anything planned for today. Next week is spring break from school so I have no school work to worry about, my house is clean except for 2 loads of laundry that I am sure I will get done sometime today. I would like to wash my car, but it has to be warmer then 55 out for me to do that. Right now I am waiting on Beth to get here and we are going to Burger King for lunch, then we are gonna stop by Pam and Coreys and visit, most likely we will end up visiting some dollar stores around here looking for cute, cheep things to decorate our houses with. =) I am definatley gonna watch the race at 4. GOOOO Junior! #8!!!
Y'all have a good Sunday!
~A
Lazy Friday, I love it!
Hey Y'all-
So, everyone knows I was worried sick about my court date this morning for my speeding ticket. Well, no worries- everything is gonna be ok! My ticket was for a 51 in a 35 and the DA dropped it to 44 in a 35....so $135 later and I am done. What a busy morning though! I had to be at the court house at 8:30 am. It seems like everyone else in this damn state got a ticket and had the same court date as me. The officer in the court room said they had well over 1,300 people expected today- thats crazy!
I was out of there by 10 am, thank goodness because I parked in 2 hour parking and I didn't need a parking ticket while I was there paying my speeding ticket, that would be terrible. I ran through a drive up and came home and did absolutely nothing. I was so tired. I ate my lunch, threw a load in the washer and slept until 2:30. I did all my Saturday morning banking this afternoon so I can sleep well past noon tomorrow. =)
I had a good night last night. I spoke to Michael.....not bad though- really. He said he thought we should see each other next week and he would
try to make time. Whatever! It doesn't matter anymore. I am really enjoying the being single and unattached and I think it is starting to get to him. He is used to having me around and having someone to snuggle up to, and I have become so not there for him in that area. I am just tired of all of it. I think that after 5 years he sould be ready to "shit or get off the pot" as my Grandmother would say. I am just waiting for that right guy to come along and 'take me away', and I know in my heart that it will happen- but first I have to get rid of Michael for good. I am working on it- I promise!
I talked to Duncan this afternoon for the first time in a while. He's been acting really strange lately. He called me this morning, but I never heard the phone ring and I knew he was at work until 5, so I waited until after 5 to call him back. We talked for a little bit, but he seemed like he was pre-occupied. It sorta worries me because thats not like him, but I don't have time to be worried about everyone else!
Beth is coming here after work and we are going to go to the Super Wal-Mart and get some groceries and come back here and fix dinner. Pam and Corey might stop by later and we will probably end up playing some sort of card game. It will be fun, it always is when the 4 of us get together.
I have quite a bit of school work to get done. I have a mid-term due in my online history class by mid-night tonight. I should probably do it after I get done typing this post. I have a mid-term due in my online fitness class due by the 14th. I will probably do that next week at work. I took a test in my evening Math class last night- I am definatley going to have to study harder for that class. It was hard, only because I didn't really study. Next week should be better.
Well, I am off to get some stuff done and have some fun with my friends.
Y'all have a good weekend!
~A
HNT My way & A little update!
OK, Y'all know my deal-I don't do Half Naked Thursdays, but I do my own type of "HNT"- a picture of my choice, usually fun!
Half Naked Thursday My Way
This is at my house on Saturday night, and yes- we were drunk!
Update:
I didn't do much of anything last night. On my way home from work I realized my gas light was on, I despise that thing! I stopped at the gas station to fill my car up and while I was there I decided to get it washed. As I was sitting in the car wash, I called Pam to see when Scott was going to be there. He was already there, so I went straight from the gas station/car wash to their house and played with the puppies for a bit. Then, I headed home to lay on the couch in my PJ's and watch American Idol. I have to admit- I am definately a Chris Daughtry fan- without a doubt! He is awesome!
I haven't heard from Michael at all today, this is making it easier. I can almost guarentee you he will call me next week and tell me how he has been so busy. WHATEVER! Anyway, I have class tonight. I will probably go home and do some chores around my house after class, then hit the sack. I have tomorrow off because I have to go to court. Yippee! NOT. :-(
I will update y'all tomorrow when I get back from court.
~A
Wednesday, the week is almost over!
Hey Y'all-
This week is flying by! I love it!
Thanks to my blogging friends, people really do read my blog. I really enjoy the 'real life' blogs. Its nice to be able to 'vent' on your blog, it really is like a form of therapy for me!
I was so tired yesterday when I left work, I ordered Chinese take out and watched American Idol at my house with Beth and Steve. I only really wanted to see Kellie, and I was in bed by 9:30. It was great! I still don't feel rested today though. I figured I would be, but no such luck.
I noticed that I have avoided the Michael topic all together recently. I don't know why, I just haven't felt like talking about him- but now for some reason I feel like I should update you. I talked to him last week one day at his house, I think I blogged about that. Anyway, he told me he thought he would make time to come up this week and spend some time with me. I didn't press the topic at all. I just let it go. Well, I talked to him again Monday night and he said he would let me know today if he was coming up or not, it depended on how busy work was this week and if he was going to have to work late. I was fine with that, and in the back of my mind I don't want him to come up. In my heart I know he would be doing me a favor by walking away. Anyway, he hasn't called me all day. It disappoints me- and it
really irritates me because I
care. WHY? UGH! I know that he could still call tonight- but why do I care if he comes up or not? Why do I care?....Why can't I just let go?!?!?!?! Its so frustrating!!
Anyway, I'm not doing much of anything tonight. I am going to go to Pam and Coreys and watch American Idol and play with their new puppy 'Bailey'. Scott is going to bring Bo up for a "Play Date" with Bailey tonight so it should be fun playing with the puppies! I doubt I will stay up late tonight, I think I am stressing out about going to court on Friday for my speeding ticket.
UGH. Another crappy day on this side of the fence, hope your day was better. =)
~Ashley
