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I'm done. Done with Michael that is. I'm ready. I'm ready to take the leap and get rid of him. I am very serious about this. I have one problem though- how to do it? This is what gets me everytime I decide I need to do this. (This is the 100th time). Should I call him and tell him, should I tell him face to face, in a letter, just not tell him and see what happens?
I am seriously lost here. In the past, when I've decided not to even speak to him- it will go on for a month- then he will call me and tell me how much he misses me, blah blah. When I ask him why he let it go so long without calling- he always says "The phone works both ways." Whatever!
I've made this decision with the best of intentions. I went walking with Beth this evening and rode with her to do her laundry so she would have company. I had time to do plenty of thinking. I have all these doors open to me, yet I'm filling up all my opportunities with one loser. Seriously. I'm young, I live by myself, I go to college, I have a great full time job, and I drive a brand new car. The only thing I am missing is a big hearted loveable man. I will find him, but Michael certainly isn't it! After 5 1/2 years I feel like this is just a time bomb waiting to explode. I don't want it to be ugly, and I think thats my biggest fear. I love his family and they are crazy about me too. I hate to end something that I really thought in my heart was forever, but suddenly it changed. I don't want to give anyone the impression that i've been "putting" up with his crap for the last 5 1/2 years, the first 3 1/2 were great, its the last 2 that had the really low moments. I've had enough and I don't want to deal with it anymore. It's causing me more stress, and he doesn't seem to care.
So- if you can tell, I am looking for help! How should I do this. I want to end it and that be it. I don't want to fight, I don't want to go back and forth, I want it to be over and done with. I want to move on.
Help!
posted by Ashley at
9:08 PM
2 comment(s):
I don't know the answer...but you do. Think how you would want him to tell you that the two of you are done. Would you want a face to face, just a call, or a letter, what would be easiest on you? and don't worry about what his parents will think, what your parents will think, or anyone else... You may be surprised at some of the responses, but really anyone that cares about you - just wants you to be happy, and wants what will be best for you...
Hugs... it will be tough, it will hurt, but if you want to be done - it will be okay.
By
Fantastagirl, at
9:53 PM
(((HUGS)))
You know I'm going through the same thing, so I'm here if you need me. Do what you think would be best for you - he's been very considerate of your feelings, so you need to be completely considerate of your feelings. Just make it clear that things are done, there is no going back. Tell him everything you are feeling, and how it's not working. Be firm, and stand your ground. Best wishes.
By
So Gone Over You, at
7:34 AM
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