Fat Tuesday & Is anyone reading this?
Hey Y'all-
I am so beat today. I didn't get home until a little after 11 last night- way past my bedtime. The puppy is adorable. I hope to get a picture of him sometime this week. He is just cute as can be.
I haven't had much to do at work today, and being so tired hasn't exactly helped either. I would love to have lots of work to do so it would take up my time and the afternoon would fly by! I am not in a good mood today either, I think its because I am so tired from last night.
I have nothing exciting planned for tonight. For some reason or another- none of the outlets are working in my kitched. We have checked every breaker and now we think a fuse must have blown. I don't know. Anyway- I was going to put my fridge back tonight, but I can't do that because I can't plug it in! UGH! I will have to call my landlord this evening. I was going to watch American Idol- but I think I will go to bed early instead.
Another part of my title.....is anyone reading this blog? I haven't gotten any comments in a while so I was wondering.
How can is 'spice it up' or change it to make it more interesting?
Input is great!
Later~Ashley
Busy Monday!
Hey Y'all~
I was off work all day today, but I still feel like I worked a full day! I got up the same time I do when I work and went to pick up my friend 3 month old little girl Cadence. I kept her today for her mommy so she could work and not have to pay a sitter. She is adorable. We got back here around 8 and Micahel's dad and brother got here around 9 to put the floor down. They were all done and left by Noon. Pam and the little boy Jake she babysits were here by 9:30, so after the flooring was done Sean helped me move everything back into the kitchen and I fixed us all lunch. After lunch we ran to Wal-Mart for some stuff and hang out here for the rest of the afternoon.
I have a busy evening planned too! When I finally get off this computer I am gonna jump in the shower, then Beth is coming over to give me a pedicure, and I have to be at Pam's to go get the new puppy by 7ish. We are leaving around 7:30 to head to the airport.
Check out all the pictures:
Me and Miss. Cadence!
Look at that precious face!
Jake & Cadence
Kitchen Before:
This is a picture of my kitchen that I took this morning before Michael's dad and brother got here to put the new floor in. Whoever lived here before me was just nasty, it looked like they never pulled the stove out to clean under it. The real dark spot on the floor is where an old, old, old hot water heater used to sit. Whoever put the 'newest' floor covering on didn't bother to put it under the hot water heater, they just went around it.
Kitchen After:
Here is a picture of my kitchen finished. Look at that shiny new floor! I forgot to take a picture before we put all the furniture back in! DARN IT! I love it! Of course my fridge isn't in this picture because we can't wheel it over the floor until the glue competely dries, tomorrw is another day!
Well, I will update y'all later on the new puppy that Pam & Corey are getting tonight.
Have a good one!
Weekend Recap & Some Pics.
Whew, this weekend flew by!
Friday night went just as planned. I left work around 4 and went to my parents house. Scott's girlfriend Karrie was down this weekend so I wanted to say 'Hey' and visit Bo for a bit. Then, we headed to dinner at a local seafood restaurant, then home to put my new bed together. It's beautiful!
Saturday I got up around 9:30 and cleaned my house spotless. It was great! There is no motivationg force behind cleaning like company! Beth came over and we ran to Wal-Mart for some stuff, then it was back here to wait for Aaron and Beka at 5. Pam and Corey came over. They bought a dog, Weimarnar, from MO off Petfinder.com last night. We are going to the airport to get it Monday night. Anyway, when Beka and Aaron got here we went to my mom and dads so they could meet Bo, then 9 of us headed to Applebee's for dinner. After Applebee's we came back here for drinks and cards. I didn't get in bed until 2 am!
Today was fun. I went shopping with Pam and Corey all day, then to dinner with my family tonight, and then Mom, Dad, Scott, and Sean (Michael's brother) came over to move my stuff out of the kitchen. I am getting my flooring tomorrow! I am so excited!!
I'm gonna be off all day tomorrow so I can be here with them when they put the floor in. I still have to get up early though, I am keeping my friend Jessica's 3 month old baby girl Cadence tomorrow. She is precious!
Well- I am off to the living room to watch the ending of 'Dancing with the Stars'. I will leave you with a picture of my new couch, I also have a love seat, but my kitchen table is sitting in front of it at the moment so I thought this would be a better picture.
FRIDAY.......finally =)
So glad it's Friday! I had the hardest time getting out of bed this morning, but knowing it was Friday definately helped!
I'm leaving early today. Wooo hooo! My mom and I rode together today. She is attending training downtown in a hotel and they are supposed to get out at 3:15 so I am leaving when she gets here to pick me up. We are gonna go get the right bedframe for my new bed, then we are going to my house to put it all together. I have to do some cleaning either tonight or tomorrow morning. Rebeka and Aaron are coming to see my house for the 1st time so it has to look spectatular! I will take some pictures of the new furniture and the new bed either tonight or tomorrow. I will post them- I promise.
I have been blogging so much it doesn't really seem like I have anything exciting to blog about. I was hopeing Michael's mom would call today with a date to put my floors in- but no such luck. When my kitchen has new laminate, I will be the happiest girl in the world! Ha ha!
Speaking of Michael, he called Scott today for the 1st time in months. He wanted to ask him some car related question. Anyway- Scott said they got on the topic of the new puppy and talked for a bit. Hummm. Interesting, Scott seems to think he was checking in on me. I only work every other Friday at my job and normally this would be a week I have off, but since I have to be off next Friday for my court date because I got a damn ticket, so I worked 2 Fridays in a row (last week and this week) so I could have next Friday off. LOL. If he wasn't such a Jack Ass he would just call me to see what I was doing!
I don't have anything too exciting planned for this weekend. I think I am gonna stay home tonight and get my house in order.
Happy Friday!
Friday-----HURRY UP!
UGH! This has been the longest week ever! I am so drained.
I wasn't exactly good tonight- I went to school and took my test, then I left. BAD ASHLEY! I couldn't bear 2 more hours of sitting there. I have only missed one other time in this class, and that was when I had to go to the hospital. It'll be ok, I am just gonna have to study hard because we have another test next week! These 3 hour long night classes really move fast- oh well.
I wanted to do a lot tonight, but for some reason or another I didn't get much of anything done. I left school and went to go visit Bo....Scott's dog- thats the name he settled on. (Its short for Bocefus) He is a little cutie. Then, I was gonna stop at Wal-Mart and pick up the digital prints I ordered- but I didn't feel like it. How sad is that? So, I came home, changed into my jammies and layed on the couch and watched American Idol and wee little bit of Skating with Celeberties. My parents dropped off Applebee's for me, but I only at half of it- my stomach was doing funny things. I layed down for a little bit at 9 o'Clock, but I was feeling kinda sick so I got up and took a hot bubble bath. Ummmm- Much better. I just got out of the tub and now I am sitting here typing this post.....(I think I am becoming addicted to blogging!) I read a little bit of Dr. Phil's
Ultimate Weight Loss Challenge while I was in the tub. I am really enjoying this book- if you would like to loose some weight- I suggest you read it. I can't speak for it yet, but I know I will be able to talk about all the weight I lost next year this time =).
I'm not really into posting pictures of myself Half Naked, but since its Thursday I feel like I should put some sort of picture on here....so I have self titled Thursday's on my blog to be a day when I can show you the reader any random picture I damn well feel like posting.
Here it is:
This is me and Beth in March, 2005. We went to my friends house in Pennsylvania on Easter Weekend. We had a blast. As you can tell, we are both quite tipsy. (Like my John Deere PJ pants??)
Well Y'all- Thats all I have for now......
NEW Puppy Pics Here
Here is the new baby....
He doesn't have a name yet. Scott is stuck betweek Maverick and Blaze. He is a 9 week old Great Dane, his color is called Blue Mearl. He is absolutely adorable. My 4 year old boxer Jake is the one you see in the backround. He is so loveable with the new puppy. He follows him everywhere he goes! Thats also my mom in the background, Jake is her baby--no joke- that dog is spoiled rotten!
Night Y'all!
Excitement & Tremendous Confusion
This post might be a little bit of a 'Grab Bag'!
I am so excited! Scott is picking me up from work at 5 and we are going to get the puppy today!! :-) It's not even going to be my dog, but I am excited anyway!
Michael just called me at work. No reason, he just wanted to see how my day was going. I haven't talked to him for a week up until last night. He upset me and I cried it out last night. It was like talking to a stranger. He hugged me goodbye and on my way home I started blubbering like a baby. My mom was at my house because her washer broke and she needed to wash some clothes. I spilled and told her how upset this makes me...yadda yadda. I also called my friend rebecca who I work with on my way to the house, she made me feel much better. Everyones answers point to the -get the hell away from him. I know what to do, mom says Dr. Phil would be all over my ass! He said he might want to come up next Thursday night and spend the night with me since I will be off that Friday, and I said 'OK'. But now, I don't think thats what I want. It will just make it worse....sorry the sex is great- but not worth it! I have to make my self do this- and I know I can!
More excitement, I got my bed today! It was delivered at lunch time.
Left to Right- Rebeka, Me, Beth
This picture was taken on Saturday night before we went bowling. It was way past our bedtime! (See my pretty car in the background!)
I will post pictures of the puppy tonight!
~A
25 Questions
I stole this from
Momma of 2, like her- without permission. (I don't think she will mind!)
1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought? OMG- I look like s**t and I hate mornings!2. How much cash do you have on you? None- I nevery carry cash.3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST" (not last person's answer!)?Chest- no I am not a pervert, but Momma used Best and that was the good one!4. My favorite planet? I don't know if I have one- I am pretty content with earth.5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list: I delete them every night before I go to bed. Sorry!6. What is your favorite ring on your phone? Honkey Tonk Badonkadonk7. What shirt are you wearing? I am supposed to dress up for work, but I am going to clean out some old files today- so its my No Fear hoodie at the moment. (Its cold in here)8. What do you label yourself? I'm not crazy about labels. But if I had to I would say motivated young adult.9. Name the brand of your shoes you're recently wearing? Nike10. Bright or Dark Room? Either way, it doesn't matter to me.11. What were you doing at midnight last night? Sleeping12. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?I turned my text messaging off because I have an annoying friend that thinks he has to text message me 100 times a day.13. Where is your nearest 7-11? I have no idea. I don't think there are any in NC.14. What's a saying that you say a lot? Hummm, I don't know if I have a saying.....15.Who told you they loved you last? Momma this morning when I was getting off the phone with her16. Last furry thing you touched? Jake, my boxer!17. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past three Days? None.18. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? Don't use film- have a digital camera19. Favorite age you have been so far? 1620. Your worst enemy? Myself21. What is your current desktop picture? The school logo22. What was the last thing you said to someone? Nobody is here to talk to!23. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly, which would you choose? Money24. Do you like someone? I like everybody!25. The last song you listened to? I'll Think of A Reason Later- Lee Ann Womack
Pictures....
Hey Y'all-
I added a picture to my profile, but I can't figure out how to add one to my page....I will work on it.
In the meantime- here are some pictures -
Me and my boxer Jake. (Yes, thats Michael on the other side of me.)
Michael and I before his Senior prom in 2003.
Stephanie (My Friend) & Scott (My Brother) - Thanksgiving 2005
Sean (Michael's brother) at New Years
Beth & Steve at New Years
My buddy Duncan
Thats all for now! I hope y'all enjoy and leave me pretty comments. PS- We're not going to get the dog tonight....the guy has to take his wife to the doctor....so we are going tomorrow.
~A
Post Titles are SOOOO overated!
Sorry- couldn't think of a good title for this post. This post is going to be a little bit of everything. Today is the first day in a long time that I am feeling better about my self, the decisions I have made and the path I am going to continue following. I have to warn you- this might be a long one.
I want to start off by thanking
Momma of 2,
Brighton and
Kari for their wonderful comments. It helps to have 'Blogger' friends to help you through the tough times. Its even better to get comments from people who don't know you, because in my opinion- they are raw- they have no pre-concieved notion of who you are and who you should be. I love it!
On to more recent events- I had a great relaxing night last night. I came home and changed out of my work clothes into some jeans and running shoes and headed to school for a make up test. It was for Survey Mathematics- and it only took me 30 minutes. WOO hoo! I was so excited- it was just too easy! After my test, I came home and changed into PJ's, read some blogs, and watched TV, before heading to bed at 10:30. It was nice and relaxing- I even felt energized when I woke up this morning.
My brother is going to get a Great Dane puppy tonight, and I am going to ride along with him. It is about an hour from where I work (which is already an hour from where I live.) Anyway- I am really excited about that. I have MapQuest'ed the directions and they seem fairly easy.
I had to park my car at Michaels house today because the car pool lot I usually park at is also a church and they are having a funeral today. Michael live 1/2 mile from there so I just parked it in his driveway. I called to ask his mom if it was OK last night, of course it was- I bet it drove him insane this morning on the way to work. He isn't smart enough to figure it out on his own. It's really gonna drive him insane when I don't pick it up until 8:30/9:00 tonight! LOL
I am feeling better about our situation. It really isn't that bad not having him around. I knew when we broke up that it could turn out like this-its like my worst fear came true. I will make it though- I just have to stay strong.
I am going to mess around with the picture sharing thing this afternoon while I have nothing to do at work. I will probably post some pictures later today!
Check back & Don't forget to leave me some love!
-A
Mondays just SUCK!
OK, I have come to the conclusion that Mondays suck!
I had a great Saturday night on the other hand. Me, Beth and Rebeka went shopping and to dinner. After all our fun we went and picked up Rebekas husband and met a bunch of my other friends for midnight bowling. We had a great time, even though I didn't get home until 4:30 in the morning. UGH!
Sunday was a lazy day, mostly layed around all day, watched the race, went to a movie, grocery shopped and came home to vegitate on the couch. That's just how I like to spend my Sundays!
Today on the other hand, has been a headache. I
hate copier repair men! THATS ALL! If I get into the mess you might fall asleep because its boring, and my blood pressure might go to an all time high for the aggrivation! Other then that, it really hasn't been a terrible day. I am actually in a half good mood! :-)
I am so proud of myself, I got all my laundry washed and
put away, which never happens! I also cleaned my kitchen spotless, except for the ugly floor-but hopefuly thats getting replaced soon enough. Y'ay!
Have a make-up test tonight, then I am going home to watch The Bachelor: Paris!
Weekend Update
Alright everyone I am on here to update y'all on my weekend so far, and let me warn you it hasn't been great
Yesterday afternoon my mom called me to let me know my uncle with pancreatic cancer had passed away around 2:15. I knew this was coming but I had no idea it would hit me so hard. It was hard to swallow. He isn't that much older then my dad and that worries me to. We're not going to go to the funeral since we were just up last weekend and got to see him. My mom is going to send a flower arranagement, and I am sure it will be over the top and greatly appreciated.
On a better- more exciting night- I had fun last night. When I got off work I met my family and the furniture store and picked up my furnitre. My dad and brother are great- they lugged everything upstairs for me! It looks so nice in my living room. Duncan called while we were at the furniture store and said he was gonna take a shower and call me when he was on his way over. Well folks- after the furniture was put up we all went to dinner and then I went to Wal-Mart with Pam and Corey to grab a few things. He never called. Earlier when I talked to Sean he thought Duncan was going to eat with Michael. That's shitty if its true- Duncan is the one telling me to quit answering the phone when he calls and stay away from him, then he is gonna ditch me and hang out with him? WHATEVER! Anyway, I ended up going with Pam and Corey to some friends house I haven't seen in a while. They grilled out and we watched the Olympics before indulging in a good game of Spoons. We had a blast!
I didn't get home until 12:30 and into bed until 1 am. Thats late for me on a Friday night, I am usually in bed by 11.
I don't know whats going on tonight. I am supposed to go out with my friends Rebeka and Aaron. I was going to invite some of my friends to come along, but I am a bit agitated with them after last night. UGH! I might just take Beth. Pam and Corey already have plans or I would invite them too. We will probably go out to eat and watch "Date Movie" (I hope its good).
I'm not doing much of anything today. My house is lacking on the cleaning side because I wasn't here last weekend, and was busy all week. I have my first load in the washer- only 3 more to go! That's a lot for a single person! I can't wait until they schedule to put the new floors in my kitchen, hopefuly I will know something next week.
Excitement!
Hey Y'all-
I had to come on and blog about my exciting weekend coming up!
I am actually going to get real furniture in my apartment and I couldn't be happier! I have been living with a futon since August. It about bit the dust in December when the center support snapped right off. I then replaced with center support with an old crate. It worked for a while, but now the crate is starting to smoosh under the pressure and its sagging again. But, after tonight- no more sagging couch. I will have a beautiful loveseat and couch. Sometimes Uncle Sam isn't so bad! I am soooo excited!
I will have to get familiar with posting pictures so I can show y'all my new goodies.
Hummm....
I have to confess, if you haven't read the comment left by
Momma Of 2 you should. She is right on. He used to think I was his world, that he couldn't live without me....But all of a sudden nothing matters but himself.
Sometimes men can be soooo selfish!
Ok, I have to confess.....
Alright y'all- I have a confession to make.
I called Michael on Monday evening....Big mistake #1.
He answered and this is how the conversation went:
M: HelloA: Hey, what are you doing?M: Putting a 3 gauge cluster in Gary's Nova. A: Oh, well I was just calling to see if everything is OK with us. (shouldn't have said this)M: Yeah, why?A: Well you said you would call me back 2 Thursdays ago and I haven't heard from you yet. M: Well I've just been real busy.A: Oh, well I will let you go. Call me when you leave there. OK?M: OKAlright, so I get off the phone and immediately feel like shit. Of course he was talking to me all business like because people were around. (I hate that, and I wish he could just be happy that I exist) Then, he
never called me.
So I woke up Tuesday all pissed off because he didn't call me. I probably called him a zillion times on Tuesday, at least I did it from a private number.....That way it doesn't necessarily look like it was me calling.
Ok, so Tuesday was Valentines Day and he never called me, so I called him. Big Mistake #2....
I call him and leave him this message:
Hey, it's me- It's about 6:30. It seems like your avoiding me or something because you haven't called me back. I hope your not upset about anything. (why do I say dumb shit like this?) I hope you had a good day. ByeNothing, no call back. NOTHING people!
So Wednesday (yesterday) rolls around....No phone call. I make big mistake #3....
I call him from work around 2:30 yesterday afternoon.
Hey- I need you to call me when you get this. I am at work until 5. ByeAlright, that was better- no mushy 'Don't hate me, bullshit!'
No phone call...Nothing. So I get home last night and I am sitting at my computer reading other blogs and I decided I am gonna call him, but I don't have my cell phone with me, so I call him from my house phone. Big Mistake #4......
He answers and we talk for a few before Duncan rings the doorbell. I can't remember word for word what the conversation was about, but I do know that I said something along the lines of 'when are you gonna come see me again?' and his response was 'when I am not so busy'. Then the doorbell rang and I had to get off the phone to answer it, so I told him to call me when he left his second job tonight....He said he would. He didn't.
Duncan and I left my house and headed straight for his house. Now, before you think I am going all stalker....His parents own a flooring business and I had to give them a check for the new floor my landlord has
finally decided to put in my kitchen! Y'ay for the new floor!
Anyway, he comes home while we are there and we were cordial and it wasn't weird or anything. I just don't know though....I should be able to hug him good bye and kiss him hello, but he won't have any of it when anyone in a 5 mile radius in his home could see it. It's not that his parents don't like me cause they are always telling me how much they appreciate me and wish we would settle down together. My mom thinks its because the minute they find out we are 'together' again they pressure him to buy the ring. I know they have before, so that could be true....I don't know.
Anyway, remember me telling you that he had to work at his 2nd job last night? Well I told Duncan and he knows the guy Michael was talking about and he said he highly doubted it. Well....This so called 2nd job is on our way home, so we cruised by and
no his truck didn't sit there. I am sure he lied....Its not like the guy would have cancelled him coming into work....He just lied...He is known for his lies....UGH!
So, Duncan says we should ride by his friends house and see if his truck is sitting there. Duncan swears he is into drugs with this friend, but when I mention it- he adimately denies it. I don't know what to believe. Anyway, we rode by there last night....And his truck sat there and you could see in the living room, he was just sitting on the couch watching the TV....
why? I don't know ...... Maybe he was there getting his buzz....I HATE THIS. It makes me want to cry to know the man I loved for so many years is letting me down, that he is becoming or has become someone I never thought in a million years he would be. If he does have a drug problem, I want to help him before it's to late.
Well, this morning on my way to work I made Big Mistake #5....I called him....
I am not even gonna tell you what this one said. Lets just say it was like a
'Hey, call me back' message....
Y'all- I don't know what to do. I thought I was doing good and could avoid him. But I caved......It's so hard.
Wednesday- A whole new world awaits me......
Hey Y'all~
You are probably wondering from the title of my post what I am talking about. Well, I am gonna tell you- but first I want to tell you about my trip this weekend.
As you all know, we ventured north, Me, my mom, and my brother. We left on Thursday evening arriving fairly early Friday morning (like 4:30ish). I spend the day with my mom and my grandma. We went to breakfast, shopping, and then in the evening we went to play bingo at my cousins school for family night. Later, we met everyone at this nice Inn for dinner- my brother, his girlfriend Karrie, my 2 cousins, me, mom, and the grandparents. After eating me, Scott and Karrie went to visit a friend. This friend and I have a history of sorts. We used to have a good friendship, then we dated and when I moved from there to NC we broke it off. Then in 2004 we started seeing each other during a 6 month period when Michael and I were separated. Lets just say that this last little instance of dating has changed our friendship forever. We are adults now and it is just so hard to be around him and be happy. Don't get me wrong- we are very good friends and we love each other dearly, but we just aren't cut out for each other. We do have an awesome time when we are together tough. Anyway- Friday night we went to his house, but he was crashed out on the couch so we hung out with 2 other friends that live there and headed home around 10. Then on Saturday we got up early and made the 4 hour trip to visit my uncle with pancreatic cancer. He looked good, of course I haven't seen him in 6 years, so he definitely looked older. We left there around 1 and headed back to my grandparents house- which was 4 more hours in the car. When we got back, we went to visit '
that friend' I was telling you about. We ended up going bowling just the 4 of us with some other people. It was fun! Then it started snowing and we hung around his house until midnight, then hopped on the 4-wheelers and snowmobiles and took off. They dropped me off at my grandparents house around 1:30 in the morning because I was frozen. (We just don't get weather like that in the south!) I was ready for bed! We were supposed to leave to come home on Sunday, but with 10 inches of snow and a small Honda Accord, that was nearly impossible. Instead we stayed in and played board games most of the morning, then in the afternoon we went sleigh riding and rode 4-wheelers some more. We went out do dinner with some friends on Sunday night and came home early Monday morning. I am was wiped out.
I came into work late yesterday, and did I mention how much I
hate Valentines day when I don't have anyone to spend it with. I have to admit that I did call Michael on Monday night. I am
stupid. It didn't do anything but make me feel worse then I already was feeling. I went to a friends house and ate dinner and watched American Idol last night, I could have thought of better things to do, but sometimes you just have to settle!
I bought Dr. Phil's
Ultimate Weight Loss challenge yesterday at Target. I started reading it last night- I am definitely going to do this!
Anyway, on to my title- that's what it means. I am going to "start over new". I want to get rid of this extra weight and become the person I was before I met Michael. I had the greatest time this weekend and he wasn't there with me. I rode on the 4 wheeler with this guy named Chad. He was so nice and we had a great time. I realize now that if I can forget about him for a weekend and have a good time- I am capable of forgetting about him all together. I know its gonna be hard, but what I am doing to my self with all this stress is so unhealthy.
Sorry its such a long post!
Middle of the week!!!! Whoa Baby!
I am so excited that today is Wednesday! That means I only have to work 1 more day this week & I get paid again in a week! I am soo looking forward to this weekend and getting out of town, even though it is to visit a dying relative- sometimes its just nice to get away.
I had fun last night, it was nice and 'moderate'. I went to eat dinner with my parents, then I went to Big Lots looking for some Valentines decorations for my house- none! That place was wiped clean! Then, I met Beth at Wal-Mart and we picked up some V-Day stuff. I got a card for my friend Jessica's little girl who I adore! I was in the room when Cadence was born on December 1st, 2005. I will always love her, seeing a child born is the most amazing thing ever!!!! I got her a card for her 1st Valentines Day and I got her 2 onesies and a little pair of pink pants. I also got some cute monkey static clings for my screen door, they are
so adorable!
I am going to dinner with my parents again tonight, but first I am going to run home and put a load of laundry in. I have got a lot to do tonight. I have to clean my house, do all my laundry and pack my bag. Granted we aren't leaving until tomorrow night, but I have work all day tomorrow, then I am going straight from work to school, then straight to my parents house and we are leaving for the weekend. Y'ay! I just did 2 chapters in one of my online classes so I didn't have anything to worry about this weekend, and I started work on my other online class too, I hope to finish that tonight in between laundry and cleaning! Wish me luck!
Nothing new to report on the Michael side of things. I haven't talked to him since last Thursday. Atleast once a day I get the urge to call him, but then I remind myself that the phone works both ways. In the back of my mind I would like to 'formally' end things with him, but I know that he isn't as stupid as I think he is and he know that its over. I know that as time passes it will get easier.
One of my online classes is a fitness class. (Its all book work- not like a normal fitness class). Anyway, our one assignment I did today was to come up with a fitness plan and stick with it until the end of the semester. Of course she can't monitor our progress, but our assignment was to describe the fitness plan we choose and explain why we choose it. I choose walking at night around the 1 mile block I live on. The town has it marked off specifically as a one mile walking trail, its all on main roads and well lit. I am hoping to do this at least 3 days a week. Wish me luck!
I might post tonight if I can think of anything. LEAVE A COMMENT IF YOUR READING SO I KNOW SOMEONE'S READING! Please?
~Ash
So...How am I doing?
I am doing good or maybe I should say fair. I think about calling him all the time, but I know if I did I would just be let down or sucked back in. It just isn't worth it anymore. I am tired of being a door mat.
Last night I went to eat with Beth and Steve, then we ran by Wal-Mart for some necessities that I needed, then I dropped them off and ran home to watch 'The Bachelor: Paris'. I really like Sara from Nashville, TN. She is so sweet and she seems genuine.
I have to say, even though I am having a "tough time" with walking away from someone who I thought was my soul mate, after 5 years- I suddenly feel like its my turn to do something completely for my self- that's an excellent feeling.
I am going out to dinner with my parents tonight, then home to watch American Idol with Pam and Corey. I am a Spring TV junkie- I will admit it!
Thursday night I have class and Friday I am going 14 hours north to visit an uncle who has pancreatic cancer. I am coming back on Sunday- and
sleeping.
I know I am crazy for doing such a long trip in only a weekend, but right now it is almost impossible to get off work!
More later....
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A lot of stuff.....
Sorry I haven't posted since last Thrusday, a lot has gone on. I would love to go into detail, but I don't feel like "reliving the pain". My blog has now turned into a place for me to journal my return to the happy person I was before I met Michael. I am going to rid myself of him completely, work on my health, and focus on school.
I hope you all join me in this journey, I will definately need all the support I can get!
Thank you,
Ashley
Thursday ROCKS!
Hey Y'all-
Sorry I hadn't posted in a couple of days. I went to the doctor on Tuesday, more drama. High blood pressure, WTF? I am 2o friggin' years old! They took some blood and I have to go back tomorrow morning. I was out sick on Wednesday feeling crappy as ever, and here I am back at work today! Y'ay. I am off tomorrow. What a quick week!
Cross your fingers that I will get to see Michael tonight!
Ash
