It's a brand new day!

Wednesday- A whole new world awaits me......

Hey Y'all~

You are probably wondering from the title of my post what I am talking about. Well, I am gonna tell you- but first I want to tell you about my trip this weekend.

As you all know, we ventured north, Me, my mom, and my brother. We left on Thursday evening arriving fairly early Friday morning (like 4:30ish). I spend the day with my mom and my grandma. We went to breakfast, shopping, and then in the evening we went to play bingo at my cousins school for family night. Later, we met everyone at this nice Inn for dinner- my brother, his girlfriend Karrie, my 2 cousins, me, mom, and the grandparents. After eating me, Scott and Karrie went to visit a friend. This friend and I have a history of sorts. We used to have a good friendship, then we dated and when I moved from there to NC we broke it off. Then in 2004 we started seeing each other during a 6 month period when Michael and I were separated. Lets just say that this last little instance of dating has changed our friendship forever. We are adults now and it is just so hard to be around him and be happy. Don't get me wrong- we are very good friends and we love each other dearly, but we just aren't cut out for each other. We do have an awesome time when we are together tough. Anyway- Friday night we went to his house, but he was crashed out on the couch so we hung out with 2 other friends that live there and headed home around 10. Then on Saturday we got up early and made the 4 hour trip to visit my uncle with pancreatic cancer. He looked good, of course I haven't seen him in 6 years, so he definitely looked older. We left there around 1 and headed back to my grandparents house- which was 4 more hours in the car. When we got back, we went to visit 'that friend' I was telling you about. We ended up going bowling just the 4 of us with some other people. It was fun! Then it started snowing and we hung around his house until midnight, then hopped on the 4-wheelers and snowmobiles and took off. They dropped me off at my grandparents house around 1:30 in the morning because I was frozen. (We just don't get weather like that in the south!) I was ready for bed! We were supposed to leave to come home on Sunday, but with 10 inches of snow and a small Honda Accord, that was nearly impossible. Instead we stayed in and played board games most of the morning, then in the afternoon we went sleigh riding and rode 4-wheelers some more. We went out do dinner with some friends on Sunday night and came home early Monday morning. I am was wiped out.

I came into work late yesterday, and did I mention how much I hate Valentines day when I don't have anyone to spend it with. I have to admit that I did call Michael on Monday night. I am stupid. It didn't do anything but make me feel worse then I already was feeling. I went to a friends house and ate dinner and watched American Idol last night, I could have thought of better things to do, but sometimes you just have to settle!

I bought Dr. Phil's Ultimate Weight Loss challenge yesterday at Target. I started reading it last night- I am definitely going to do this!

Anyway, on to my title- that's what it means. I am going to "start over new". I want to get rid of this extra weight and become the person I was before I met Michael. I had the greatest time this weekend and he wasn't there with me. I rode on the 4 wheeler with this guy named Chad. He was so nice and we had a great time. I realize now that if I can forget about him for a weekend and have a good time- I am capable of forgetting about him all together. I know its gonna be hard, but what I am doing to my self with all this stress is so unhealthy.

Sorry its such a long post!

posted by Ashley at 8:21 AM